Week #13 - Hello Monday! I am having a hard time writing tonight - this may be a post that I publish tomorrow. With being busy at work, busy at home, and lots of family time, I haven't had time to even consider what I am going to write about this week. Off to bed I go..... Happy Monday Everyone!
And here we are on Tuesday - I did miss my Monday deadline...Again. I didn't really miss it, as I knew what I was doing when I went to bed last night. But, I was so exhausted - I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and I couldn't find the energy to write about my week. Speaking of the elliptical and loosing weight, I am consumed with the size of my jeans. I am not sure what happened, but it seems as though overnight they no longer fit. How does this seem possible. For the last three days, I haven't been able to button my pants? The same pants that fit just weeks ago and I bragged that I had finally put on a bachelor button - now the fabric doesn't even touch together... I am just holding my jeans up with my belt. (OPPS - did I just share that?) Is this what I get for exercising? Last night was --- Day 3 of the Elliptical Machine ... A mile in less then 30 minutes is pretty good for the elliptical. At least I think it is!!
This weekend, I was pumped - I bought a "Sweating to the Oldies" DVD with Richard Simmons - Let me tell you it was much more fun when we were in high school then it is now. I made Brennon do it with me last night - That lasted through the first song - the next words out of his mouth, "I am not into this aerobic thing." So we shut it off and I used the elliptical. I sure didn't want him watching me sweating to the oldies. Really, I think that I should thank Carter for this stretchy skin that has so delightfully turned to fat. I asked Brennon Saturday if I had ever had it before and he said no. It is actually quite depressing. I guess this will be my motivation to loose weight. I went to lunch today with some co-workers, and honestly it was the first time I had heard the phrase fupa.... Thank you Caitlin for introducing me to this new term. I would explain what it is - but it may be a little inappropriate and I am just a little annoyed that my pregnancy resulted in that. If you don't know what it is - I guess you can google it....my new friend the fupa... In researching this - the fupa is caused by stress. When you are anxious, fat collects in your midsection to deliver nutrients to your organs... Well - I guess I need to take up yoga or maybe start meditating. Whatever I have to do - it has to go away. Brennon says I don't have a fupa... but I am not so sure :)
While I was exercising last night, I did do an egg wash for my hair. I know, silly - and it probably won't work, but I read on Pinterest that a raw egg, olive oil and lemon juice is supposed to make your hair grow while making it soft and shiny. I put this mixture on my hair to sit while I was exercising. When I came upstairs, I asked Brennon if there were scrambled eggs in my hair. He said no, but that I had egg yolk running down my face. Pretty sure it was mixed with sweat and was the most disgusting thing I encountered last night.
HERE IS MY WEEK IN REVIEW....
I realized this last week that I am going to have to do some deleting on my facebook page. I feel so sad when I get on facebook and there are parents complaining about their children, the sleepless nights, the long days, or how naughty their children are. I also want to add that it is okay to mention these things, but the constant complaints upsets me. I understand having a rough night, or a sick child... but constant complaining about your children, your anger with them, and the way you speak about them makes me wonder why you continue to have children. I would take anything to have one day with my baby and you take for granted how precious your children are. I would love to stay up all night rocking my crying baby. I would trade a thousand sleepless nights for my child's arms around my neck... and I would love to hold my child and explain his naughty behavior and why he is in time out - So, I know that me writing this on my blog is not going to change your view or your complaints - But, please remember that what you take for granted - others are praying for. Well, that is end of my rant.
LOVE - I just reread my rant and was wondering if I should delete my words. I have decided not to, as they are my true feelings. But, I have to follow up by saying that I am very thankful for all the love in my life. I try to remember that those comments or posts are written by people who have not walked in my shoes. They may not understand how difficult it is to suffer from infertility or the worry and wonder if you will ever see those two little lines on a pregnancy test again... or if I became pregnant again, would I be able to carry my baby to term. I would take morning sickness every day for my entire pregnancy, I would lay upside down without a complaint, just to be blessed with a healthy full-term baby to share life with. I am so thankful for Carter and all he has taught me. How I love him and wish he was with us. I am so thankful that God blessed me with a beautiful baby boy. I am very thankful for my husband, who loves me, because of my strengths and despite my faults. I am thankful that he is my husband and the father to my child. I could not imagine being on this journey with anyone else. I feel blessed that God gave me struggles, and heartache, joys and blessings all which have led me to where I am in my life. I continue to praise God for the love he has given me, the family he has blessed me with, and the road that led me straight to my Brennon and my sweet Carter.
LOVE - I just reread my rant and was wondering if I should delete my words. I have decided not to, as they are my true feelings. But, I have to follow up by saying that I am very thankful for all the love in my life. I try to remember that those comments or posts are written by people who have not walked in my shoes. They may not understand how difficult it is to suffer from infertility or the worry and wonder if you will ever see those two little lines on a pregnancy test again... or if I became pregnant again, would I be able to carry my baby to term. I would take morning sickness every day for my entire pregnancy, I would lay upside down without a complaint, just to be blessed with a healthy full-term baby to share life with. I am so thankful for Carter and all he has taught me. How I love him and wish he was with us. I am so thankful that God blessed me with a beautiful baby boy. I am very thankful for my husband, who loves me, because of my strengths and despite my faults. I am thankful that he is my husband and the father to my child. I could not imagine being on this journey with anyone else. I feel blessed that God gave me struggles, and heartache, joys and blessings all which have led me to where I am in my life. I continue to praise God for the love he has given me, the family he has blessed me with, and the road that led me straight to my Brennon and my sweet Carter.
FAMILY - I was quite emotional this weekend. Not because I was sad, but because I was filled with love. There are so many things in my life to be thankful for. I am thankful for all the things that most days, I forget to be thankful for. And I am thankful for the love of my family. Brennon and I both have large families - Our family does hugs, kisses and I love you's. We are there for each other and we share our lives. We had two large family dinners this weekend. Saturday, B's family was all together for swiss steak, cheesy potatoes, desserts and of course vanilla homemade ice cream. And then Sunday, we brined and cooked a turkey. Kevin smoked a ham and a turkey, and we had all of the fixings including butterfinger homemade ice cream. The food was awesome and my family time was awesome! Overall, a great family weekend that again resulted in I am sure a bigger fupa. :) Fupa what a silly word!
FRIENDS - I also had a great weekend with friends. Summer, Brennon and I spent the afternoon Friday day drinking.... Which I hadn't done since Good Friday 2012 - I guess it is going to be an annual event. We enjoyed ourselves and I seemed to have laughed enough that my stomach ached the next morning. I have decided that day drinking these days involve a couple of glasses of wine, much different then day drinking when I was in my 20's. Saturday night, our pal Evan had a sleepover at our house. It was so much fun. I am so thankful to Larry and Summer for allowing Evan to visit. We played games, watched Cars and enjoyed homemade ice cream for breakfast. In my defense, homemade ice cream consists of milk and eggs and those are breakfast foods. Life is to short to be anything but happy and I truly believe that means ice cream for breakfast every once in awhile.
FAITH - Since this is a week I am feeling most thankful, I have to be thankful that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. He has offered us the most precious gift of all - "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16I was reminded again today that we are each on this Earth for a reason, a purpose under Heaven. We are each given gifts to share with the world. The gifts we receive set us apart from other people. God doesn't make mistakes, so every gift He gives us is to do His work. Do we doubt the gifts that God gives us? Are there times that we do not trust in ourselves to use the gifts in the way they are intended? There are times that I have doubts - about my life and my future. The bible reminds us that God will provide for each of us who believes in Him. He does have my best interests in mind, but sometimes it is very hard to trust... but I continue to be a work in progress and God continues to work in me. A strong relationship with God is trusting that God will not always provide a way out, but a way through. I continue to pray that I fully appreciate the gifts that He has given me, and that I use them for good. That my purpose on this Earth is to help others, to give instead of receive, to uplift and be of assistance to others. I will continue to use these gifts every day, and continue to praise God for giving me these gifts, these joys, and these struggles. For it is my responsibility to use my gifts to turn stumbling blocks into stepping stones.
This brings me to my thought for the week. "One day it will all come together and make perfect sense. You will see God's amazing plan and be thankful that every gift, every pain, every love and every moment brought you to where God wants you to be. So for now, sit back, rejoice in God's love and allow God to take you places you never dreamed you would be. I can't wait for another day on this Earth to use my gifts to do good and to TRUST IN GOD!
Have a great Tuesday and a wonderful week! I have to go work out now... I suddenly have a huge motivation to loose weight!
Love - Melissa
Love - Melissa
Melissa, you are such an inspiration! Thank you for sharing your raw emotions and helping me remember that we all have so many many things to be thankful for! I pray for and think of you often! XOXOXO!
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