My Sweet Kaleb

My Sweet Kaleb, 

It has been 1001 Days....

It has been 2 years, 8 months and 26 days since you left us for your Heavenly Home.

Some days it feels like forever  ago - some days it feels like just yesterday.

I miss you Kaleb.

I miss the "who you would have been".

I miss most the sound of your laugh.  I miss the smile you would have given Jase.  

I miss the craziness that would have been our life.

I miss the chance to hold you on my lap.

I want YOU to know....

 I miss you next to me.

I know you are next to me.

My Sweet Kaleb,

It has been 1001 Days...

It has been 2 years, 8 months and 26 days and I just sat down to pick out your urn.

Some may say that I was avoiding the task.

Maybe.

To me, I know that your ashes do not define you.

Some days I feel guilty because we didn't have a funeral to say goodbye.

Even though, I know you didn't want me to leave Jase.

I feel like you didn't get my attention, my grief, my love.

I want YOU to know....

 I still grieve.

 I will ALWAYS love you.

My Sweet Kaleb,  

It has been 1001Days...

It has been 2 years, 8 months and 26 days and  I love you more today then yesterday.

I think about you daily, safe in the arms of our Father.

I want ME to know....

Your soul is free. 

Your soul is with me.

My Sweet Kaleb,

It has been 1001 Days...

It has been 2 years, 8 months and 26 days and we still would have chosen you.

Even though, I know that I would have chosen you, 

I know that it was God that chose you for me.

Godspeed Little Man

Sweet Dreams Little Man

All My Love Will Fly To You Each Night On Angel Wings.

After two years, I didn't realize how hard this would be.  There is closure I didn't know I was searching for. As your dad and I pick the right urn, and struggle for the right words, as we pick you up from the funeral home and bring you home, we grieve again and we are reminded that love never dies.

LOVE NEVER DIES.

We Love You Kaleb McCloud Zellmer.

My heart is happy

I can't wait to have you home with us.

Even though I know, 

You Never Left.

A Special THANK YOU to Powers Funeral Home.

The love and compassion you have shown our family will not be forgotten.

Thank you for taking care of both of our boys, Carter and Kaleb.

Thank You for supporting our journey with Jase.