I have the urge to write...
I'm just not sure what to write about.
I started out by thinking about everything I did today.
Let me tell you - it was extensive!
1. I had coffee.
2. I sent a message to new friend on Facebook. ( If you pray, please send a prayer for my friend and her husband as they recently said goodbye to their sweet baby.) I pondered starting a Facebook page for grieving Mama's and I checked out the Molly Bear's Website (
www.mollybears.com) and then I thought about my boys. I can't help but think about how different life would be with all 3 of my boys with me... and I wouldn't be telling the truth, if I didn't tell you that I think about it multiple times a day.
3. I had a discussion with Jase about the importance of toilet paper. Let me tell you 100 things that no one tells you that you will say when having a boy.... (but that is for another day).
4. I made a grocery list.
5. I carefully considered how to manipulate my husband into getting me another cup of coffee so I didn't have to get off the couch.
6. I checked out my yoga pants and wondered if that was chocolate Jase wiped on my knee.
7. I updated my grocery list.
I went to HyVee - This was the outing of my day.
Let me tell you a secret -
I am pretty sure I finally (and successfully) pulled off bed-head in the grocery store today - - followed by make up that was covering up yesterday's make - up. Hey don't judge. I fell asleep cuddling with Jase at 8 pm last night. I did brush my teeth this morning.... (I think?) Yes - Yes I did!
8. The little carts at the grocery store should be banned. I have a strong dislike for the little carts in the grocery store.
Did you ever think that grocery shopping by yourself would be the highlight of your day?
HAVE KIDS :)
I wondered if I left my cart in isle 6 and went to the car, if Brennon and Jase would notice?
I also realized I hadn't looked at my list once.
9. I looked through my phone for the grocery list while I secretly snuck snacks out of Jase's grocery cart when he wasn't looking.
10. I consistenly appologized to strangers as my child attempted to hit them in the back of the legs with the grocery cart because he wasn't paying attention. Did I forget to mention that the little carts at the grocery store are the end of all good things?
9. I sat at the child's table at the grocery store and colored pictures with Jase while Brennon paid the bill.
I randomly noticed the 4 year old standing by her mom in the checkout, as she obviously wondered why I could sit on the floor and color in the store, when her mom told her no.
11. I took a deep breath as Jase carried in groceries, even though he fell on the bread. Because I know that the fact that he was carrying in groceries was more important then my already weak 45 calorie bread.
12. I pondered water retention and the fact that I had gained 5 lbs overnight when I have been religiously eating 45 calorie bread. Oh, and that huge piece of chocolate cake from Costco yesterday.
13. I made sandwiches for lunch (with my 45 calorie bread and carefully measured out 1 tbsp of fat free mayo with 1 oz of roast beef) while secretly thinking about my husbands piled high roast beef on rye with real Hellman's mayo and Jase's cheese Pringles.
14. I snuck a bite of macaroni and cheese off of Jase's plate. I considered tracking it, and snuck another bite. ( I felt guilty about sneaking the food and tracked it in my handy Weight Watchers app.)
15. I checked my phone. No calls today.
16. Jase asked me to take a nap with him. This was the best offer of my day followed by the reminder that I would have to watch "The Purple Guy" for the 100th time this week. (The purple guy is also known as the movie "HOME".)
17. I shut the television off as soon as Jase fell asleep and drifted off into sleep.
MY PHONE RANG. I ignored it.
MY PHONE DINGED - It was text message.
MY PHONE DINGED AGAIN - A reminder that I had a text message.
18. I pondered vodka. Is it to early for vodka? I drank diet ginger ale. It is better with vodka.
19. I thought about dinner. I ate a banana. I thought about dinner again. I drank some water. I pondered dinner and asked if we could eat dinner early tonight. I thought 4 pm was acceptable. Brennon said no. I drank some more water.
20. I had to pee. I thought about my conversation with Jase earlier about the importance of toilet paper. I really had to pee.
21. We made dinner. My child whined. I allowed him to watch the iPad during dinner (mother of the year) while complaining about children watching iPad's at dinner.
I took away the iPad. I listened to my child whine.
I did not care. Ok, I cared a little.
I wanted to wine too....
I also wanted a family dinner without youtube kids.
22. I attempted to clean the kitchen.
We put Jase into pajama's ... Let's be real, Brennon put Jase in pajamas.
Brennon is the best at night time routine.
I sat down to write and watch the Cubs/Cardinals game. Brennon is a Cubs fan. I am a Royals fan. It doesn't really matter, because Opening Night is finally here. I love baseball. Here is to 2017 being the year that the Royals and Cubs play each other in the World Series.
Did I mention that we have tickets to watch the Royals game in just a few weeks?
23. MY COMPUTER JUST DIED WHILE WRITING THIS BLOG. I had a slight panic attack that I would have to rewrite the excitement of my day all over again.
-- No worries, it was saved.
24. I read Brennon my blog. He announced that he had put the snacks in Jase's little cart. Have I mentioned that I really dislike those little carts?
25. Jase asked for a glass of chocolate milk. I am beginning to wonder if 4 cups of chocolate milk since dinner is a little to much? I got myself a glass of water.
This goes with out saying, but I am pretty thankful for pull-ups at night.
26. Isn't it strange how 8 glasses of water day seem impossible, but 8 glasses of wine with dinner seems like a good idea? (No, seriously I haven't been drinking, I just saw a funny meme and had a good giggle and then I thought about wine. Really do you know how many weight watcher smart points is in wine? Enough said.)
27. Well, I guess that it is it for the day. I am officially going to take a shower, for as long as I want, using all the hot water and then change into a new pair of yoga pants. I may even break out the fancy shower gel instead of the Paw Patrol Bath Wash next to the shower.
Let me tell you, I am living the life.
AND then, I am going to cuddle that sweet little boy of mine, and take a moment to thank God for all He has blessed me with. I am going to take a moment and pray for all the things that I currently take for granted because even on the craziest day, I wouldn't trade it for anything.
28. Really, I don't have anything to say, my OCD just couldn't allow me to end this blog with an odd number. ....
Until next time, THAT's ALL FOLKS.
I'll leave you with a couple of recent pictures of Jase at preschool.
Just because...
I'm beginning to think that this little human acts a lot like his mom.
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